self destruction

self destruct
do u have your day to die
medicate me I'm crazy
the perfect number
craving love
the person inside of me screaming "LOVE ME"
suicidal intentions knocking at my door
remember me mom
i was the child you HATED!
turned to drugs for happy emotions
distant minds, closed doors
"GET AWAY FROM ME!"
far from home
this isn't were i want to be
I'm coming down the road
the road to a passionate hate
its building inside me
I'm medicated by society
i don't know who i am
your lieing through your teeth again
"JUST LEAVE!"
alone in the world
everyone will have their day to die
it's just..
today is not mine!
you lied to my face again
the look of content
the look of honesty
"LOOK AT ME I HATE YOU!"
so today is your day to die
here is the lever...
you were my perfect enemy
you never cared
i was your child
you are supposed to love me
it was your choice to have me
i always disappointed you
well wake up and face me
don't play games
cuz i just walked away
and said
" YOU FUCKING DISAPPOINT ME!"
"I'M BETTER OFF THIS WAY"
and maybe one day you will realize
what you have done to me
manipulative lies
false accusations
your fucking crazy bullshit
trying to make me what you wish you were all along
well guess what mom
I'm my own person
i will live my live the way i see fit
go back to sleep away from pain, hate, the truth
cuz no one will ever see you like i do
self destruction